Sunday, April 17, 20113:18 AM

■ changes that you cant change anymore

HIIII . soooo yeaapp , yesterday i had poa and hy elective class . soo when its done , i went home straight cos need to go nenek house . i was fucking sad cos i could not contact wv him at all for the whole fucking day . arghhh . nevermind . soo nenekhouse then at 10 plus pm , went to mac to eat . went home after that , and i bath and slept like pig . todaaayy woke up at 6 plus cos need to go for the brisk walk thing . i have blister everywhere . ahhh fuckkk :( im sooo sad . and and the best part of today is when sweetheart came over at sembawang ! hhehehe ! yayy ! mamy can see those happy looks on my face . i went right up to him and hug ! ahhh fuckk , dnt care who see . ^^ then ate candy floss , sweetheart took for me balloon and im soo happy ! off to syed wv mamy and met sist and isaac . heheh ~

soo yeaappp , let me make this very very very clear . look around you , how things had change. everyone change , sooner or later , i bet all of us would be going to our separate ways . okk , maybe not all , but some , and yeap , one of them is definitely me .
i dont see the need to be friendly anymore . after that incident which everyone left me alone , i realised that its time for a change . i wouldnt want to cling on all of you anymore if none of you had tried to appreciate my kindness . soo i decided to isolate myself , yeapp . i know all of you might be thinking that then how about her ? why i am sooo close with her now ? cos i realised she understands me better than anyone else . yeap , no doubt last year we had SOO MUCH CONFLICT , YEAPP SO MUCH TILL WE DIDNT TALK TO EACH OTHER . i bet both of us talked about each other . and to be honest , thats a true friend cycle . i've known her for almost three years , and if god's willing , i will be friends with her till enternity . whyy ? because i love her and her family like how i love my family . so how about the another her ? obviously she's happy with her own life , and her another two friends. maybe she's pretending that shes okk . idk , leave it to god . if you think imma bastard , soo be it . leaving her for the another her . AND NOPEE I NEVER DO THAT . i changed my attitude not because of anyone , ITS BECAUSE OF MYSELF . i think im being TOO kindd soooooo i gotta show my real attitude . but wait a minute , all of you care ? after i drifted apart , all of you starts to ask questions ? whoaaaaa . i didnt know all of you care so much about me . well , talk about me all you want . like i said , im out of the school in a few months time , and you wont see any of me . really . :)
ohh maybe i miss us , idk . forget about it . no tears to cry . :) thankyou .

lastly , HAPPY 516TH DAY SWEETHEART ! how times had flied. no doubt , we had gone through alot kaaaan ? esp this month . tho you hurt me sooo much , i still love you so muchh . call me dumb for loving you so much . hehehe ~ okaaayyy byeee ! iloveeeyoueffingmuchhh saaayaang ! <3 mwaaaahhs ! *hugggs*