Monday, October 10, 201111:38 PM
■ holding on
lets talk about life, ive finished my N'level like finally. cant believe im actually like took those papers already. shoooo fast. i miss my beshpren soo much. i needaa talk to her like fucking asap please. i hope both of us can meet up soon. :(
this is my life. yes im finding for work, but not so soon. :) its natural for us teenagers to find some work after their exams huh? hahahaha the trends. as per normal. my family has been a lil bit messed up, idk, its very complicated and hard to explain. no matter what i still love my mum so much.
kkk sooo my relationship with sweetheart, okk hard to explain. yes we're holding on strong and i really hope it would paid off soon. yes you may see us like 24/7 always together, but all of you dont know what we are going through. you dont know how much problem we have now. you dont know how hard it is to meet him nowadays. you guys dont know that we're already at the edge now, but still holding on bit by bit. so stop saying that me and him has no problem. its just that i dont fucking show it to all of you. i dont want people to ask me questions. i just have to look strong. we had the most fights every single day, but i still love him. i think its normal for long term relationships to have this kind of fights, thats why i kept it to myself. maybe we need to talk things out, waiting for the right time. maybe on our 730th day? yes perfect day to talk about stuff.
alrightttt. soo lets talk. ytd afternoon had the worse fight with sweetheart. whatever lah. after that, i went for a jog with sister while sweetheart took care of lil prince. i hate it when mamy went jb with ayah cos to meet that ... arghh forget it. its like my dad doesnt consider my mum's feelings. i know its been like 7-8years? fuckk. but my mum is the most strongest woman that i know. ok back to the topic. i jog like only 5 rounds, cos i pancet already. i wonder hoowww in the world i could run more than that with my heavy boots during my ncc sea trainings? tha fuq. okkk soo i did some exercise and i swear it hurts till now. i did floater kick, this one exercise to do up my body shape and pushups. goshhhhh needa buckup on my pushups. then aku dah mcm nk pitam HAHAHHAHAHA. k had watermelon and off home.
had another small arguement with sweetheart till the next morning. i went syed with mamy and sist, and he surprised me frm the back at market there. ade lah tu nak menangkan hati aku. idk why i cant be angry with him for too long. we find some hair dye to dye our hair after my mt O'lvel. he promised me okk, tahan dari june tauu. he promised me after my N he will buy! soo wait for his dad to transfer money first. i kind of miss ibu :( ohh he will start work this friday :( nevermind, i'll start work soon. then i got the most tightest hug evaaa cos he was sorry. okk lahh i gottaaa go now. bye muaah!
